My dad is currently in a dementia nursing bed. Both his physical and mental health are deteriorating quickly.
Last week he was yelling unprintable things because he could hear my voice in the corridor. He wouldn't tolerate me in the room.
This week, all he does when he sees me is start sobbing. He says it's all over, everything is gone and it's all my doing. Tonight he says he doesn't want me to visit him anymore because I make him feel worse. He's already said I've made him homeless, taken everything away from him and should've just said if I didn't want him. He's currently refusing to eat and drink.
I love my dad to bits, but I really hate this disease. It's taking his thoughts, his words, his capabilities and although I'm trying not to let it, it could well taint my memories of my dad :-(